~Oshima Yuko announces her graduation from AKB48 @ 2014 Kohaku =(~
I knew this day would eventually come, and yet right now at this moment I don’t think Yuko’s announcing her graduation from AKB48 has really hit me yet…
If you’re not familiar with the Kouhaku Utagassen, it’s long been NHK’s iconic musical songfest where invited female and male singers perform in team formats as they are pitted against one another collectively as the Red and White teams respectfully through an entire evening which concludes right at the midnight hour in Japan where the final votes are tallied and the winning team is declared. Over the years countless prestigious artists have appeared on the Kouhaku and while in more recent years the artists have become more and more in abundance as modern/pop artists, the festivities are very much still in celebration of enka artists, whom are the root of Japan’s unique folk-pop genre. In the clip above which took place just a few hours ago during this year’s Kouhaku, the musical performances of “Koi suru fortune cookie” and “Heavy Rotation” have been omitted to include just Yuko’s dialogue. In trying to find a silver lining here which admittedly is beyond difficult….Yuko does answer Nino and Ohno’s question of her graduation by declaring that she will indeed continue on as she is, which most likely will include her continued acting career and hopefully, just hopefully her music career as well as I really feel that she can be a most successful soloist without question. If you notice too, it’s quite evident even before Yuko confirms it, that none of her fellow 48 members had any idea of her pending announcement on this evening with perhaps maybe a couple of exceptions as Takamina at the very least appears to perhaps have know beforehand…? And the writing may have been on the wall within the past week or so prior as fans have been reporting that Yuko’s demeanor at events lately has been much less than her usual energetic and engaging self, and can you imagine the onslaught of a wall of anxiety she must have been holding inside leading up to this night’s announcement =(.
No doubt I’m numb right now, Yuko’s been my one and only Oshi for as long as I’ve loved AKB48 and really in trying to work through my emotions as to whether I can still love AKB48 going forward after she’s officially graduated…I can’t really say. Of course I no doubt have numerous other favorites in the 48 family and yet, this is devastating…I can’t even honestly put that into words here right. And to think, this year’s Kouhaku Utagassen hasn’t yet even aired here yet locally on our Japanese station as it has annually for as long as I can remember been broadcast on a one day delay as it’ll air tomorrow on January 1st at 5 p.m. (HST). My heart is sunk, would it be understandable to go into idol mourning？（´∩｀*)．．．I can cry why?? and yet really all idols are meant to one day graduate from their craft, it’s just that I’ve always felt an overwhelming sense of it being too soon and that sentiment goes all the way back to Morning Musume’s 1st Gen. graduations as I’ve never really truly felt that sort of okay closure so to speak where an idol announces her graduation and I’m like thinking the timing is right and she’s done all that she can possibly do within her idol home or genre till that point…personally that’s just never happened which perhaps is selfish on my behalf as all idols do indeed grow up as we do as fans and yet in these times I don’t mind being selfish and admitting it openly as days like today are never so forgiving or happy to allow me to be otherwise. You know it’s therapeutic babbling along like this when my idol adoring heart has yet again been crushed, and yet I do think that I need this sadness to overwhelm me so that I can make peace with it, as I continue to adore the ever loverly Yuko~♡ from near and afar ( ┰_┰)。