(the following minus clumsy edits was written in early June)….so I’ve been taking
some time away a lot of time away from my blog recently, the internet as a whole for the most part actually xD so there’s been a lot less images…imagery~* for me to dream~* over and although Couscous says that I’ve been sleeping too much lately and have been neglecting coming here it’s really not true =)….and the e~mail bit maybe more stupid than anything else actually? I’ve moved to a new address but more on that later. Okay the not coming here part is true but I did give a trustworthy friend access to my WP just to watch for any unwanted spam that may sneak through and those entries which may not be spam but the filter thought so and just in case any aliens, yetis or that large unidentified thing (as seen on the NG Channel!! =O!!) in the ocean suddenly appeared and so on and so forth ^ ^♥. I apologize to everyone whom I’ve missed in these past weeks months ahhhh I feel rude now xD and there were a few posts stuck in editing @ WP just prior to me leaving so be forewarned of some really old and irrelevant thoughts appearing here maybe as I’m not even sure if I should still post some of them at this point being that they’re so dated in content. Okay just these two today from early June….edited quite a~bit now though. And what have I missed since…pretty much everything like Yuko’s♥ B~DAY, any graduations/ additions/ auditions/ oh but not the releases as I’ve been still listening~obsessing~watching~♥’ing as that hasn’t gone away and also omg H!P has now taken notice of how greedily enticing fans into the realization that in order to receive each and every coupling song can require one to purchase 5+ copies of various versions of a single~single can be fun….financially wacccccky for us though no doubt :P!…and then my IW feed stopped working so I sort of took that as a sign then whether that’s logical or not….I’m betting on the latter though. AKB now in beautiful blu~ray and a lot of dramas and some anime have been also a joy lately. It’s funny because I’d begin writing and taking notes for new posts but then I’d not publish them….a few left in limbo would be “Ai & Mai Mad Libs”, “Now with 20% larger breasts”, some World Cup mania…not the a, b, c…etc. type =P though!, “The Tomato Project”…..kind of sad all of the scans and videos have been added and yet it sits on the editing floor with a “under construction” tag still posted xD, a bit of aiko~♥, Q&A translations to Momusu’s DVD Magazine Vol.36 which I thought was so endearing as well as idoly~educational to the new girls sort of new girls xD, thoughts and reactions to insightful questions, the anime “PERFECT BLUE” with waaaaaaaay too many caps~♥, “Pa~fu♥…..” aka Acchan is pure love in “Q10” a~lso with waaaaaaay waaaaaaaaaaaaaaay too many caps~♥ =P!!!!!!, BOMB magazine and UTB scans and well sort of a lot more actually =/. Those posts are so old now though still sitting in editing so they’ll probably never be published.
And then there was the AKB general election which
just occurred occurred and while I honestly have even remarked in the past here how I anticipated Acchan~♥ to reclaim the #1 spot in the group (that also perhaps being arguably the #1 spot in all of the idol♥ loving wota~world) from Yuko~♥ something that momentous never quite hits you until you see it in print~…but while Couscous also guessed that I was in …”deep deep depression” because of the senbatsu this is also most far from any truth :P! I’ve been away so long from the idl world now in news and updates that both could have graduated and I wouldn’t have a clue…..shudders to think!!!!!! The thought of acquiring such stated although imagined depression due to such an event is most amusing though and we as fans, fans being short for fanatic as we also musn’t overlook those final letters altogether (゜ロ゜ノ)ノ！！！、．．can have the occasional (some more than others =) ) over~passionate moments of both elation~*~~* or angst and sheer disappointment with those inner emotions coming out in truly unregulated spurts and amounts which gives each her/his own their personal perspectives~. While I’m tempted to go all fanatical about the senbatsu results right here and now I’ll refrain from restrain myself from doing so as you’re most likely already familiar with my favorites♥ in the group from my musings here and you most likely already know of my reactions to much of the movement amongst the ranks….although I will say, while they’re continuing to grow to gargantuan proportions and that for even a “large” idol~group it surely makes it difficult to 100% immerse oneself into each and every personality/face/body in light of the endless recruiting to be sure if the “new” girl(s) are on the verge of yet tickling~* you fanatical once again to where your member rankings are being questioned by internal affairs (aka your heart, mind & eyes…) and therefore being turned up~side~down to the point where you feel most obligated to re~do them at this very instant～Σ(゜ロ゜;ノ)ノ！？．．．yes. A lot of rethinking of rankings is very much needed with the non~stop romance that is AKB although none of it of course is in light of the new most recent senbatsu standings~. Maybe I’ll further muse upon them a bit later? MMMmmm…..again so many months later it’s probably best not to don~cha think =P?
just recently just add in the Nogizaka46 scare and I honestly don’t know quite what to make of it at this moment completely while typing and with in keeping with a certain~straightforward~mind at that….it’s all a bit contradictory and odd to say the least~. Why would a writer, creator, composer and marketing mastermind @ the top of his game resort to slander and “inner” embattlement as AkiP now appears to have initiated? If true can anyone really imagine all of the shocked, saddened and even angry emotions the girls all must be living through now? I mean isn’t the very means of AKB’s success and very existence considerable stress enough from within?….just between senbatsu and fan endearment flirts and ♥’s there’s surely enough rivalries already to go around and then some. A tiny part of me wants to confidently imagine it’s all an elaborate publicity stunt…but why go to such lengths and especially why now? I mean AKB48 is yet expanding with now NMB48 set to debut and SKE48 continues to grow and sales have been to say the very least way~Way~WAY through the roof for the ambitions~* of any aspiring idol♥ group in AKB48. Was NOT YET just a tinny hint into this coming abomination? To place then senbatsu girl Yuko♥♥♥♥♥ into a new unit and then portray the aura of a group yet “lacking” and leaving more to be expected and hoped for talent wise…was that like the appetizer just before the destructive main course of an action in which I can only call mean spirited and bizarre? Does AKB48 not get the producer’s jollys~off anymore? Seriously. While the virtual AKB “member” was a cute marketing idea and it did create quite a stir and now in hindsight the girls were aware of its creation and use certainly (+ lots of love and bonus points for selecting the delicious body of Yuko♥), however with an announced rival group being slated for devilish creation this is an entirely different animal and it’s yet difficult to say if even the girls in AKB were aware at all based on what’s been released so far. But if this “rival” group slated to outgrow and overpower our beloved AKB is indeed true and not just a really bad nightmare and abomination even @ that in dreamland, then you’d then look to history and how man has always and continues to love to wage war and aim at conquest no matter what the potential casualties or possibility of defeat~. In the more recent history it’s an empowerment which has transpired the hands from Komuro Tetsuya in the 90’s to Tsunku through the Millenium to now AkiP who holds the most desired cards in the deck but as history has “taught” us repeatedly the art of the royal flush eventually loses its shine~. A significant part of me has always wished~* for more idol/musician/writer types and at this very moment the will in me would empower Yuko♥ this trifecta of self ability so that the chapter following “Nogizaka46” would then read “The mutiny from within” as Yuko♥ who’d be wonderfully articulate and crafty at publicity as witnessed when she faced a bit of adversity not too long ago would then take matters into her own hands and rival AkiP’s betrayal albeit in a much sexier* of ways in crafting the continued growth, image and sound which has already made AKB48 a lock for the Idol~Hall~of~Fame…..gosh I just thought about the “46” notion and how it’s stating that with less they’ll be more and talk about truly biting the hand that feeds you although ironically in this case it’s a role reversal in the sense that I highly doubt that all of upper management and AkiP would look very sexy in mizugi or seifuku~♥ in a sort of Gary Larson type of way~ :P. So likewise why would they now bite the girls whom have grown to present a bounty of fruition in a seemingly unbeatable fashion and especially in light of an ever growing and competitive market? One can only hope~* that it’s all a bad dream or rather just an elaborate stab….just one not meant for one’s back~ =(. HM, again is this still happening??? I have no idea as this was all for the most part (excluding the little edits :P) typed back in early June…..lol I really am lost aren’t i? xD, not an uncommon occurrence though.
And getting back to the whole old posts thingy now sitting in edit and whether to still post some of them or not this entire blog experience has been and still is a learning experience for me day to day and just thinking back to when I first began writing here (this blog already being a few months old and into 2007 as I wasn’t the original author) the word “blog” alone puzzled me and then I learned “web~log?” or it’s something perhaps like a web~based log or diary of sorts?….but for everyone it’s really to each their own most personally so I guess there’s really no set rules or standards of what a blog should or shouldn’t contain =). Still the “diary” approach and the thought of connecting~* with others with similar interests was always most magnetic but now fast forward to 2011 and everything here has become a quite messy and undefined room if you will =/….I’ve tried the move away from the personal bit a little but it’s not in my nature to do so but then again who really would want to come here to read about what I did this morning, am doing now…..well my life’s just not that interesting to mention too much :P. I guess that’s why I still don’t Twitter, first it would be pretty boring and uneventful to know what I was doing “most” of the time and then there are times that I don’t think one can Tweet about really :P!! Writing for me can be therapeutic at times though and just expressing things openly whenever you want to and not worrying about it too much helps…my life of course and some things that I think Mikey alone can fully understand when it comes to OF (or online friends…..lol did I just make up a new acronym?….nahhh that’ll never catch on xD). Let’s just say that sometimes even the ‘dented can’ at the market finds a home~♥ to love ^ ^♥. You see for me the whole undefined, lack of format and direction/ diary version of keeping a blog (wait…you see how the previous sentence and this one have absolutely nothing in common or direction and yet they sit adjacent to one~another??….in the same paragraph even?….yep I truly do type as I think in real time maybe a bit too much being the scatterbrain that I am :P) suits me and yet it conflicts with how I feel about this blog at times, actually quite often and that was part of the reason for me stopping to post here….a tiny part though but still an ever present feeling recently. What I mean is maybe the lack of connecting with readers stems directly from this lack of format or direction or maybe it being too personal at times? This is definitely not a news blog or in any way a blog that keeps anyone up to date with anything really and a lot of that comes from perhaps maybe an old fashioned way of experiencing things….for example me not being a downloader and opting to purchase releases makes for any music related posts to be written in the real time that I receive them and listen/watch them so they’re inevitably written late and often times way after their actual release dates. I often bundle multiple orders together to help to save a bit on shipping……lol the words save and shipping with imports don’t really have a place next to one~another though as the dollar really stinks too now (><);….so then I receive releases even later with the attempt at bundling :P. And with technology and how instantaneous information is shared today with all of the advances does having said posts written here so late after release dates even make them remotely interesting or relevant I wonder? So that may explain maybe some of the lack of connecting I’m not sure. Then again seriously I may just suuuuuuuuuck at writing to begin with so that’s all a mute thought. I wonder too if maybe I reply too much?…like maybe I need to shut up more often and not reply to everything as maybe it becomes a bother to some so maybe that’s a turn off? I do realize too that in general blogs may not be the best media format for constant or direct connectivity with others as it can be a rather lonely place at times and that other media may be much more adapted to meeting and conversing with others with similar interests. Like with thread sites no one typically writes too much at a time so I’m thinking it keeps your interest much more that way whereas maybe I write too much at times making visitors lose interest because they’d prefer just a few sentences like you’d find @ a thread site? But I’m just digging here and maybe it’s not at all related to finding inspiration~* to write. I’m trying to figure out my inspiration to write. One thing is certainly true though when it comes to any said conversations in that……..you celebrate comments, not a lack thereof….and you can’t live life so presumptuously~. I think though that most have arrived here over the years due to “happy~accidents”….you know you’re searching for something specific and you see a link in the results that may help and you then click~* on a random link and then go oh crap!!!!!…this isn’t what I was looking for (><);. Crap.
Don’t think for an instant that I haven’t cracked up at a few “search terms” which were typed and led someone..a few people?? here lol such as……”gravure idol dirty sex”…..omg there’s no actual sex here……=O and today logging in for the first time since June I found in my dashboard someone named “horny hot” left me 5 spam messages……awwwwwww~♥………(uh…..long sigh* for “horny hot”…….) What the..? I’m giddy with that one! I mean who names themselves “horny hot” and then goes running around wild and unrestrrained in the wilderness of the internet all~butt~naked~and~everything???? haha =)
I was logged into ‘site stats’
earlier today um some day awhile ago?…for the first time in ages and noticed an extra abundance of visitors @ “~愛 potion NO.10~ To my dearest Takitty♥…” post and from the referrers section it appears to be coming from a HelloOnline thread and the reason I’m mentioning this is that one of the comments there after the linking to here says that the resolution of the scans I did for that posting aren’t very good =(. I do scan photos quite large I think as they usually vary between 2.5~5 MBs per single scan but when I upload them to WP they compress in order to help to save memory space here =). I’m not sure how thread sites or other blogs work but here I’m paying for space to upload anything like photos or videos so making them smaller really helps to keep costs of blogging down a lot otherwise the space here would run out too quickly to justify the means of even being here and then I’d need to purchase more memory space too quickly =(. I’m also thinking though that the person who commented there isn’t reading the posts as I’ve mentioned in the past that full sized scans are available to site subscribers and also without watermarks as a few scans have those as well….but more so I’ve always hoped that the scans I do, appear okay here for those posts’ sake as I’m rather hoping~* to promote the idol shashinshuu or publication so that fellow fans will also support the idols and purchase the pbs/ magazines too~♥. Scanning photo books does place a lot of stress on their spines and bindings of pages and the more you do the more damage can occur but I don’t mine doing them and it’s only a bit sad for me in a way when you hear someone say that they’re not very good scans even when they’re here for a promotional purpose and to make the posts pretty~* and cute~♥ but also when you realize they aren’t reading anything you’ve written =(. You may have noticed that older posts and specifically those posted before my move from Vox when they closed last September, that when those photos therein are clicked on they become full sized scanned images/photos and with Vox there were no costs for memory space to upload to and I actually didn’t know there were programs that would compress them to smaller images back then so those photos still are really large and the original sizes which were uploaded…….oh dear that is one awful~run~on~sentence which barely makes any sense looking back at it lol…I must be tired it’s past 5 am in the morning..Zzzzzzzzzzz…..lol that wuz written some day back in June =P…..why was i up so late? Hm. =, P. Not sure.
Is this blog relevant anymore? That’s a really good question. I don’t know and with the readers here being so quiet I really have no way of knowing a) If my writing’s okay b) If my writing sucks and that I have way too many run~on sentences that would make my English teachers blush~*…..and don’t even get me started on the typos and then those occasional frequently made up words which I blurt out and my inclination obsession to go to hearts(♥) more times in a single post than would be recommended or allowed even if this blog were being judged by the caretakers of cute~land and then there’s those times when my mind sort of wanders off topic~off~earth really……wait I wasn’t done typing :P!!! c) More Johnny’s is needed d) I have too many sexual* thoughts each day =P e) I don’t have enough sexual* thoughts each day f) all of the above except (a) & (e). Seriously though there’s an amazing~* family of fan~blogs covering Japanese culture, news and music and really everything imaginable so with that I’m not so sure that this blog’s continued existence holds any interest or relevance as its existence is rather about stuff I come across and those that I’m a fan of in a sort of every day fanatical sense and nothing more. Just a lingering thought…nothing serious I don’t think. Mmmm….if by any chance Ray you’re reading still or any of this mess I’ve written I’m really hoping it got there okay or rather actually worried that OKAMO didn’t reach you safely =(!!! If not I’ll be really sad and then upset @ the person who said they’d mail it asap =(…..the return address though isn’t mine just in case and not saying that you would use it but then my full name would need to be on there because there’s more than one of us with those initials…. Not sure when I’ll write again here and um what to say next?……oh! so how has everyone been ^ ^♥?
Oh and if I do stop writing here and just so that you never say that I never showed you too much*….
..you may want to close your eyes and not look directly into your monitor :P…..
And then below these are a few idol♥’s naughty moments and it’s funny as these aren’t zoom~ins as those are actual entire photographs….you’d think they would be zoomed lol…(^q^)! Mmm…I’d ask if you could name any one of them butt there may not be enough info here to do so I’m afraid :P….I wonder why do people take such close~up photos of themselves? I mean there was that whole Favre thing and that made no sense and that’s actually really creepy and unwanted I think by everyone?..then that guy named Weiner in NY….are you kidding me?? What are the odds??? Each unwanted Yes! And just omg.
A guy friend once told me something along the lines that….”a girl’s body is not unlike an amusement park.” And that he “…doesn’t know how we’re able to leave the house every day with so many attractions…” I can’t quite remember how exactly he put that last part but it was something to that effect and that’s when I gave him this look: (。ーωー。)♪．．．and then I left the house ^ ^♥.
Oh and just not to freak anyone out, the photo just above here is so not what you may be thinking it’s depicting because it’s sooooo not um wait lol~! Ah~ I actually have no idea of what you were thinking so you honestly may have thought that she was: a) Just getting dressed b) trying to get one of her socks from her cat c) getting ready to paint her toenails d) changing out mr. tootsie~pop e) trying out your 3 month anniversary of being together present for her….aww how sweet~♥ or f) playing with her cat*. On a ‘separate’ note I was earlier watching the OWN channel and they kept showing this Trojan “swirling” massage~rrrrrr ad a few times each hour and seriously something like that exists? I mean why didn’t someone tell me about this thing earlier lol then at least I could have specifically pointed to what had been keeping me from the internet these past few
weeks I um mean months:P! Kiddinnnnnng!!….sort of. REally.
A~h oh yeah and if anyone can tell me what she’s really “doing” just above I’ll remove the present~* for you…maybe =).
~Okay now it’s 100% safe to open your eyes…..