MorningBerryz blog was originally opened by my cousin and I know there may still be some confusion as to how this all developed over time. When he first opened this blog (I came up with the name though~ ＾ ＾) my cousin really didn’t have an idea of what he’d be doing with this new venture and sometimes I would try giving him ideas for posts although even together we had no idea of what we were doing (._.;)….I actually still have no idea of what I’m doing ・゜・(ノД`)・゜・。! So the very first entries were solely his writings although he’s deleted a lot of them over time but some of them still do remain in 2006 and early 2007 posts. My cousin did eventually lose interest though and he told me that it just wasn’t something for him to want to continue on with……so in an attempt to make a seamless transition I began posting everything here from the early part of 2007 all the while keeping this blog anonymous in a sense~….as I would purposely write posts from……I guess you could say from a male’s aspect and point of view. Much of the reason for this was that for one, I thought it would seem really really odd (・_・)! if the blog’s style of writing changed dramatically overnight if I really wrote the entries truly the way that I wanted to……and two, even more of a personal concern of mine was just how I would be viewed by others seeing that I’m really in love with collecting and *cherishing* female idol collectibles as in music♪♪~, shashinshuu, photos, videos and other various collectible merchandise~. At the time I was really unaware of just how many other female fans were out there whom also love to watch and collect idol things♥ so writing purposely to not appear as myself was something that I was very concious of doing.
During 2007 I had then met some really *wonderful* friends here on VOX and through comments and PMs I gradually realized that it was okay to be myself and it wasn’t something for me to feel awkward or self conscious about even in an open forum….this blog~. Many were most encouraging too for me to blog personally a lot more than I would previously had done~. There were those that I needed to make ammends with as I had been stupidly hiding behind a fake aura of myself….but everyone here has been so *sweet* and understanding and from that point on I was then able to write freely as I then knew that I wasn’t quite odd in my idol fandom and that it is indeed okay for a girl to love collecting female idol thingies~ (人∀`*). While I always tried to have an honest and humorous side to writing it was then just so much easier to write posts as I knew that I could then be myself.
So this blog has had a sort of schizophrenic (゜ロ゜ノ)ノ personality….with some of my cousin’s posts still here….and really due to my lack of confidence in letting others see me for who I am as much of my earlier post reflect in my writing, but really I think at the very least, 98% of the posts here are mine and all of the J-Pop collections that I’ve been writing about and sharing are definitely 100% my collectibles~ and not my cousins and he actually got into J-Pop much later than I did. I’ve actually asked him if he wanted to delete more of his posts but for the most part I don’t think he really cares too much so they’ll just remain here although again, there’s not too many of them still left. My cousin also isn’t interested in NASCAR or racing really….although I’ve tried to recruit him as a new fan….much to my failure~ (ノロ≦。)！
Okay and now for something that’s been going on with me right now….some visitors may have already read that I’m no longer single o(*´∀｀)o゛♥゛ and although it’s still really quite early in our relationship he’s♥ really the most *wonderful* person that I’ve ever met and I’m beyond being gooey in love~ ………(゜∀゜)………。♥ It also means me wanting so much to spend as much time as possible with him….(every breathing moment if I could although that would most likely drive him batty~!…XD) and eventually I don’t think I’ll be able to spend the time that I would want to here on VOX. This has been something that’s been growing on my mind more and more recently and I always felt that I would definitely stop blogging if one, I wasn’t enjoying the experience anymore….or two, I no longer had the time to dedicate myself as much as I would want to (I would just hate to blog sporatically and not be dedicated enough here~ (._.;) ) It’s definitely not the former thought as I still so so love posting and meeting people to share and learn about so many interests out there in music♪♪~, culture, love and just so much in life experiences~…..I do really love being here on VOX. However it’s the second thought that bothers me so much and truly I think there will come a day when I no longer am able to dedicate as much time as I would truly like to here….and it’s really for my new relationship♥ and I know it’s so selfish of me I know…but this means everything to me and I’m really really so much in ~♥~! (*´∀｀*) This isn’t something that I feel will happen really soon~…..but I do think that inevitably I’ll so feel this way one day in the perhaps near future. So for now these are sort of like my final writings here……I really don’t want to say when as I’m just not sure of when this feeling will arise me in~. In the past on some occasions I’ve spent maybe 8 or more hours on a single post~….those where I’ve tried to cover an endeared artist/group♥ as much as I can and I just have this tendancy to to want to include so much in the content that I know it’s most likely at times perhaps too much? XD Still it’s sort of in my very nature to do such things and that’s what I would struggle with so much if I knew that I wasn’t dedicating as much effort and time into my writings here as much as I would so want to~. So this has really culminated in me so much recently and…..I just see that by early next year, with some particular special plans that we♥ have together…..I just want to be so dedicated to my new relationship♥ as I feel that this is something truly *special* and I just may never have this ♥ again~.
Speaking of my bf♥! we have sort of an amusing thing happening between us whenever we’re….well mostly in the “J-Pop storage room” as he calls it…(*´艸`)…..we’ll be watching a video or looking at magazines or shashinshuu and we’re both commenting on how *adorable* or *cute* an idol is and who’s more *adorable* until the other day he finally said….”wait, you’re a girl….” implying that why are we both “checking” out girls? and my only thought was to “check” and then tell him….”hai~ I still have a vagina”…(。ーωー。)! He was at first really amazed at how much idol collectibles I own but he truly doesn’t think me odd which is so good…(^q^)! Of course I’m fully aware that we’re seeing idols in a much different light~….he’s probably wishing I looked more like them while I’m wishing that I were one of them~!…I’m kidding!!!!!!…(^q^)! 😛