This past Saturday night I was up a bit late and chatting* in IW's #wotachat room when I was told this most unexpected and devastating news….that Morning Musume's Kohachan was announced to be graduating from not only Momusu, but also from Hello! Project completely (;´□｀). Her graduation is set to happen on December 6th at the conclusion of Momusu's 2009 Autumn "Nine Smile" concert tour which will be held at Tokyo Kouseinen Kinkaiken.
The initial details mention modeling as Kohachan's possible post H!P career of choice but with this announcement's abruptness coupled with the fact that Kohachan is no where near to be a so called "next in line" to graduate member with her time in the group not being very long just yet and with numerous fellow members ahead of her in this regard, this really gives me a feeling that she's being in a sense forced out? Further there have been sources saying that her mood as of late hasn't been much of her genki self~ (;_;).
However much like Erikachan's recent decision to pursue modeling as her career choice and thus leave H!P perhaps this is much in the same….I'm just feeling a bit uneasy about this announcement though….and while Erikachan's decision was clearly of her own doing, this has much more the feeling of an offiicial UFI decision and just the manner in which it was announced by Tsunku seems so different. Surely Kohachan could pursue modeling outside of H!P while still being in it I would think?…but more importantly and regardless of what may have brought about this decision, it's truly much more about what will be missed and lost when Kohachan♥ departs from H!P on December 6th~.
Being labeled right from the very beginning by Tsunku as the *miracle* girl~ surely has caused rifts amongst fans and really during this past now decade + of me growing up along with Momusu I've just never witnessed any other member in H!P being on such opposite ends of the spectrum as viewed through H!P fans eyes. In large there seems to be an either overwhelming love of Kohachan or overwhelming dislike of Kohachan but very little middle of the fence sentiments. Truly every individual has every right to be very passionate about groups/artists they love and one such passion surely could lead to there being much *adored* artists and that those members that fans just don't connect to for various reasons….and in that light Kohachan has spent so much of her time in Momusu/H!P being deeply scrutinized. Again I think Tsunku's labeling of Kohachan with such a title as the "miracle" girl really set a flame to create such disparity and I think even a few personal conceptions may have been different had she just been Gen. 7~ as this surely set expectations so much higher for Kohachan.
During these past four years in Hello! Project Kohachan really did live up to much of Tsunku's hype though with her being at one point H!P's youngest soloist to debut, all of her accomplishments as a seiyuu♥ as well as her much busy schedule as I can only imagine must have been so hectic with Kohachan being active in so many other group releases outside of her work in Momusu~. Through it all I think Kohachan *shined* so much and while she may not have been one of H!P's stronger vocalists…..I don't think anyone can question her 110% effort which is always evident whether it be in live performances, her in studio seiyuu work, appearances on variety programs or fan events~. And in the end that's all one really can do if they're dedicated enough….is to give it their all~ and Kohachan always did just that….give it her all~. I think back to being able to watch Momusu appearing at her school for the special announcement…that she had just won the Gen.7 audition as was was now the new sole member of that generation…..how *amazing* it was to see her expression and reaction o(*´∀｀)o゛ on that day~ and to have it occur in front of her fellow classmates just so heartwarming♥~. How Tsunku personally visited her home and met with her parents and followed up with a personal tutoring in voice lessons all done to Momusu's *beloved* classic "Furusato"…..time goes by so quickly~(´⌒｀。)….I think now I'll rewatch some of this….just to remember the beginnings of what she brought to Momusu and H!P.
And what will be missed?….and lost?..when Kohachan does leave on December 6th? An irreplaceable uniqueness, energy and genkiness♥ that's truly unmatched in the whole of H!P at this moment…..which leads to group dynamics and how Momusu will be weaker for this in her absence~. Kohachan always brought a higher level of joy to whatever the occassion and it never really mattered, it's just her natural glow and *personality* which always beams so much that you can't but help notice her always~. And this is just the surface of what will be lost on that day. (;_;).
I just try to imagine what it would be like to have such a *wonderful* opportunity to be an idol..a member of such an amazing group! (*´∀｀*)♪♪~ And think of how you would be there while so nervous and full of butterflies and yet always trying to do your very best…wanting to be *endeared* by fans and wanting to accomplish so much~. I imagine that anyone in this very opportunity would be so subceptible to outside criticism or worse…words that can be hurtful. It may be that with how the world's ability to instantly communicate…through various avenues like twitter…facebook somehow we've become much too desensitized with our words at just how easy it is to reach anyone~. But truly words can and always will have the ability to be so very hurtful (;´□｀) no matter the means in which they're presented and in this sense I feel Kohachan has endured so much over these four years spent in the spotlight with so many awful comments aimed at her from what I've seen…..and in a sense sometimes when there's nothing nice to say about a person maybe it would be nicer for those words to be left unsaid…at least not in a public forum as we're all human and capable of one thing for sure, and that is hurt. And you just never know who may be reading ( ┰_┰).
(…..now watching Momusu's "Aruiteru" pv…I've just always thought that Kohachan♥ was so *genki* in her solo parts while walking and her enthusiasm so *cute* and lively……I just need to watch something to help *cheer* me up (+_+).)
I'll miss you so much Kohachan♥…..I *wish* for you the very best as you so deserve it~.＾ ＾